I wish you could tell me why Why am I crying into my pillow every night because of a boy? Why is the black hole in my chest infinitely expanding and ******* me into myself? Why is it that I'm scared of myself? Why am I afraid to close my eyes? Why am I afraid to dream of him at night? No matter where I run to, you always follow me. Where do I go when there's nowhere left to run? Tell me why you're my shadow. Tell me why you left me to rot in self-hatred and guilt leaving the questions to plague my mind. When cemeteries dug graves in my mind, I blamed you. And when I dug my own grave, I sat in the hole dying, waiting for you to bury me alive. I waited for you to pile on the dirt, to **** me yourself. I wanted you to be the last face I saw. I wanted you to hear the pain you caused. I wanted you to see the tears fall from my faucet eyes. Tell me why you never came.