If you have a problem, you should tell your friends, or whoever it is you depend on. They will listen, and they will try their best, or just give you a shoulder to rest on. And it shouldn't matter if they understand, because like you, your terrors are unique, and sometimes too great for you to even speak of. And if your friends are true, they'll always be there, and they'll always be prepared to tell you the truth that you are afraid of. If they tell you things that you believe must be lies, take a minute to realize, they would never want to hurt you for no reason other than your own good, they're just doing their job as all good friends should. Because when you're drunk and screaming at them about how you just want to die, they'll be thinking to themselves as they try not to cry, how life could be worth living if you were not alive. As you need them to keep you from losing your mind, this should come as no surprise, they need you more than you can see with your eyes.