your fingers twitch and you know ****'s about to go down. next your heart begins to beat faster and faster until it feels like it's about to take flight. it pounds it's way into your throat, your stomach is in a knot. and somehow, you're still standing wide-eyed with knees locked. his ****'s on your door step. to know he was here, it was just. too much. to think he was just mere inches on the other side of a wooden barricade, but the miles between your hearts could suffocate you. so you drag it. all of your **** he'd left behind everything that reminded him of the two of you. backyard. gasoline. gasoline everywhere. it all began, and ends, with the flick of a zippo. the lighting of a cigarette. click, light, inhale, exhale. repeat. drop it. run.