I know how you feel, i've most likely been there before. But every time a window shuts, God opens a door. You may feel like giving up, just drop your weapon and cry. Then pick it up, use it again and drop it again and die. But think about your future, the ones who count on you. And put your best foot forward, and keep on pushing through. Someday, maybe not for awhile i promise once again you'll wear a real smile.