Fear shuddered heart
beating 266 times a minute
finding comfort on the bathroom floor
in puddles of rose tinted water

Rushing the "best" times of my life
just to find peace
to escape the names resulting from disappointment and anger
please

don't do this just because of a level of seniority
understand
in the literally meaning
walk in these broken in converse

and pass a day in this plaid catholic school skirt
or walk barefoot on gray gravel rocks
under guest room bed sheets
suffocating

spend your time in silver lining rooms
under sterilized lights
sleep in little green pill bottles
then be blamed for swallowing them wrong