and that worn out spot- third rib down, two inches to the right- where i used to tuck away all your beautiful words, that i cleaned out, scraped out, scrubbed out, bleached, rinsed, repeated until there was no more lingering after burn of the things that used to call it home has finally started to cool. i am waiting for my wings to remember that they had a purpose before you, that they do not need to be licked or pampered before they are functional again. i am a hot air balloon, a lily pad, a new moon. ******* for ever having made me think i could be anything less.