So empty that it's too hard to get out of this bed.. So hurt that it feels like I've been beat.. I can only fake this smile to a point. Sometimes it's just a bad day, but lately it's been a bad life.. I'm surrounded by people who don't understand me enough. I feel the need to sink into the earth.. Without a care everyone will go about their lives.. I've lost everyone around me.. Life's been more of a question.. Because I don't know where I stand, I go day by day wondering why I'm still alive .. My eyes not filled with tears but dry from the ride.. Life throwing knifes at me..but I've become to enjoy the pain... My only friend seems to be pain.. One reason.. It's always there.. I can't say I sit here anymore and cry. For nobody can bring my to shed a tear at this point in time.. I'm hurt but in an angry way.. I feel like I might not know myself anymore.. My minds a blur but I've always wondered..... Where's my cure...