your call meant everything to me
but it never happened
you never called me
you weren't there
so I stayed up in long intervals of the night
worrying of you
and your response to me
I cried sometimes
well aware of heartbreak
and soon to come
messages
of let downs
all over
and now thinking of you feels hard
and overbearing
but I do it anyway
for I see something
in your eyes
I feel something
in your breath
you are special to me
despite of everything
I want you