In case you hadn't noticed The thought of you has infected me And to elaborate you made your wayΒ Β into the deepest parts of me You spliced the skin I let you in, a virus taking over me And like tears made of real life tragedies, you broke fourth in full force immersed yourself in my anatomy Walls I built to keep you out crumble in my own shame Cause when your in you will see all the dreams that sprung from your name Making me fight within my self for self revalations but its of no use Cause I dont know who I am, haven't known where I stand since I met you
I am not well
these hallucinations are so real I can almost feel your love for me But it's the wrong time, and it's to soon, and life couldn't really let this love be But it's so strong, and I'm too weak And my heart seems to really want to do this. So I sit back and back track and pray that I dont lose it See I'm seeing things in different ways, and I'm not sure that I trust myself to know If these are my eyes, if this this is my life, where I am where I should go And You shine in a shade of light I've never really seen before Im waking up to hopeful ways, nights filled with things I couldnt dream before And it's shown me things about love and life I would never have believed before
it can get pretty tiring
To sit in dismay day by day thinking of every way to say I want you and I love you and have that turn to second thoughts harbored in fear of never being worthy of you