I was born August 11th at 10:58 am
Being born on this day, means I am a Leo
I read my horoscope religiously even though I do not even know what a zodiac sign actually is
I'm 5'5"
I couldn't live without green tea or coffee
And I'm a sucker for a boy with a nice smile and good posture

I am still learning how to speak up
I often keep my mouth shut when I'm expected to talk
And talk when I am expected to keep my mouth shut
My eyes are constantly scanning for possibility
My arms are reaching for experience
I do not believe most things unless I have tested it
Theories were never my best attribute to the conversation

I am a handful
Most people who have known me for a while warn other people to stay behind the caution tape
My life was never a pretty journey
I tend to make most of my problems bigger than they actually are but when people ask I say they are only small things that need a little tweaking

I am taken by my failures and astounded by my fears
I often wish I did not have any at all
Although, I do, I fear almost everything
I fear what I know
I fear what I don’t know
Secretly, I get really nervous when people stand close enough to hear me breathing
I am irrational and complicated
I apologize for things I shouldn't
And I often find myself wanting to cry but never allowing myself to because I see it as a sign of weakness

I am dangerous in the setting of love
The idea of it is so beautiful, but nothing that should ever belong to someone like me
I fall in love so easily
And also out
I love the chase but I do not know that to do once I catch them
I find that this is something I need to apologize for but never do

My name is Alexis
I love frozen yogurt
And laughing at my own jokes
Even if I am the only person laughing (which is most of the time)
I am insecure about my body, my personality, my laugh even
I smile even when I am not actually happy

My hobbies include:
Worrying about my future
Hiding behind a silicon mask
And waiting for someone to tell me I am beautiful without it

I sometimes lay down, not because I am tired or craving affection or  because my back hurts
I sometimes lay down, because I can hear my heart beat
so clearly when I do
I can almost see it bursting from my chest
I know God has something else for me
Because each and every time I lay down
My heart never fails to remind me, I am still alive
There must be a reason for that
I believe that there is a reason for that