I have had my breath,
taken away
I have seen the flicker
of stars,
where there are none
I have felt the world
crashing down around me
I have felt like
I would combust,
if I did not just break,
and let it all out,
but tears are nowhere to be found
I have thought that
maybe this is all for not
I have felt guilty
for not living the life other don't get
I have shook my head,
so hard
to shake those thoughts
that drive me mad,
out!
I have known a pain
so relentless
so gnawing
I have felt the ache
of knowing,
that they were all alone  
I still wish I could have been there,
to say goodbye,
before they headed home

..Goodbye..