Words, when all else fails, I can fall into the beautiful caress of words. I can piece together a beautiful love story, or fly with the birds. I have always been alone, but it's better that way. At least that's what he would tell me, and I believed all he would say. was so broken, and so lonely, but no one took a moment to see. No one wanted to see the pain building up inside me.
Those words were my Safe Haven, they protected me from his voice. They made me feel like i finally had a choice! I have been pretending in life for about six years. Can you imagine all the fallen tears? I used to lay awake at night crying. I would pray for my final night in which i would soon be dying.
The night would soon come, i was home alone. I was thinking of you, it felt like a knife had gone straight to the bone. I wrote a letter, letting my Safe Haven embrace me for one last time. Did you know, at one point Suicide was a crime.. I grab my paintbrush and i drew your name into my skin; no goin back. The blood began to flow out freely, and soon it was black.
No one came; I laid there dying for minutes, but it took you hours. I bet no one will visit me and leave flowers. I had used my Safe Haven for as long as i could; death was calling me. I wished i could have know all the people who loved and cared about me. What if, what if you could take it all back, undo it all. Would you give up your halo and fall?
You have a choices in this life time, you really do. With my Safe Haven i have the world at my fingertips, so do you. Just look up into the storm that is raging and find the sun. Because i promise someone cares, even if it's only one. I love you all; i will always be here if you need someone to be that one. Just promise, until you have lived life, you won't give up and be done.