Today you’ve hollowed me out
Because there are holes in my shoes
From chasing you
Hoping you could fill the holes in my heart

And this is tugging me out to sea
Like a riptide
I think I’ve already gone under

Undercover in the shadows of your silence
As I watch you from a corner you’ll never come to anymore
And wonder what I’ve done

There’s something punitive about the way I love you
And I lost you when I thought it was you that was strangling me
But it turns out it’s still me

Today I’m the version of me that you would love to hold
Who’s broken and tired of trying on personalities like hats
I’m miserable

The me who needs to be scooped into your arms
Because my heels are bleeding from running
Away from myself

The version of myself who’s not here at all
Because I became yours instead of becoming me
So I never became anyone at all

There are no more arms to run to
And I’m alone
And it’s just a Tuesday

I’m drowning out here
In the ocean of apologies I still owe you

What if I’m forever lost at sea