“Breathe it in The stardust air The lung-clamping smoke And vile pious inflammation.” Listening to sounds of irritation: Humming of the fluorescent bulbs; Shoes sticking to linoleum tiles; Flies buzzing behind my ears, Leaving me to count the years And spaces between spaces Fill the lonely night until
All is silent now.
Then, Tooth and nail and eye crust Fading away to off-beat lunacy. Her spine slithers sinisterly as she performs With Vaseline greased hair that stands like horns People stalking like beasts with mental disorders Hobbling penguins and droll-*** walrus punks. Cold liquor manipulating my contemplation And I have moments of primal desperation A monster suckling another monster Bodies tangled like olive tree roots Delicious and dreadful Fraught and shameful
It’s the way of all flesh.
Among Modern Soothsayers and plenty of culinary racists, Spraying ***** onto parchment pages With forked tongues dancing on ***** stages Coffee for blood and computer screens for eyes With cool cats strutting to unknown leeching voices Bottle-slung pistol whip hooligans with eyes of yellow stains From chronic ink-sprayers of riots in narrow sectioned lanes Snapping fingers to juke box ghosts and royal jazz sires. Fourteen gypsy demons wanting to pull me apart Showcasing trinkets and rubies she adorned All while she smiles and performs And the weight of the world falls between my fingers,
Like cascading sand.
As I write, The rhythm is changing Like seasons in secluded eternity: Orchestrations of sexplosions overtake the carnal scene With hair pulling and gnawing teeth on the table in front of me Those Bohemian idolaters basking in acid kiddy pools Using tired variations of apologies in eastside sin city Arousing the vortex of virtuous degradation In a hole of sunken matchstick validation. Eyes of judges like the public census And taboo connotations Rule this attrition. Rusting Leaking stalls Blue-plate special Of sprayed blood on walls The essence of color and voice The culmination of illusory choice Dances of erasers and procreators Fever dreams of police shooting children Like movie monsters and misunderstood heroes Specters and Banshee sympathizers Marching to ******* synthesizers Burning ***** blue postmen With afropunk priests Of astonishing feats To whom May Be
Concerned.
This deep sleep exists To mediate the social cysts The reprimand the blundering kids in the mists From dreaming of their world without the risks Of falling into fields of blackened earth Where it all burns like a first world birth And greater souls speak of my worth. So I cannot wake up
The deep sleep Is there for that.
It's been a while since I submitted some poetry. This is like a combination of a rant, meets free-verse and urban spoken word. It's just what's been on my mind lately. I'd love to hear what you think it all means, or at least know your interpretation.
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Exulansis: n. the tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it—whether through envy or pity or simple foreignness—which allows it to drift away from the rest of your life story, until the memory itself feels out of place, almost mythical, wandering restlessly in the fog, no longer even looking for a place to land.