I burnt the roof of my mouth on the words I Love You.
I swallowed the fire so it wouldn't hurt you.
but those words never left the tip of my tongue
they should have been shouted
they should have been sung.
I keep telling myself you knew
but that's just for comfort.
I just knew those words would have burnt.
But now I'm afraid the silence could have hurt you.
I guess a boy who has never been kissed
Had no reason to believe he'd be missed
If he just disappeared.
he may have driven off the road
But it was the Devil himself who steered.
You told your Brother you loved me.
That is, If I'm
"The quiet girl in band merch
Who turns off the world with her headphones
She's just on a search
For lyrics
She cares not for the rhythm or tone.
But to lyrics,
She's addicted.
Her heart is sick
And They're the cheapest medicine
Love is so expensive"
Love is so expensive
That's right, you're brother told me you're secret last night.
He told me what you said.
Your secret really wasn't  safe with him
everything comes out when you're dead.
You should have told me you loved me.
We could have written our own song.
Now I always have my headphones on pretending you're not gone.
It's just pretend.
Once shaken to reality, I remember when we met.
the voice I read and think in
that sounds like no one I've ever met
I heard it come out of you're mouth.
That was it.
I was set.
Once shaken to reality I remember how you left.
******
You were ****** when you took you're last breath.
I never washed the blood off my clothes
It's proof, It shows me you were alive.
You weren't just another imaginary friend.
You were so very very real
It's hard to feel anything but numb
After I'm shaken to reality and realize It's the end.

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