My mother can't get here fast enough
I am falling into the darkest hole
A contemplation of being gone
Where to go and if I'll ever see you again is a constant reminder that I may never will
A constant reminder of who I am
Where I come from because being far from so long from my family is getting me cold and tired of living
I miss something that no longer exist in my presence as if they are of an ex partnership
Although they are who make me who I am
At a wedding
She dances with her father
I never get that chance
He's gone
And I'm sure others are in my place
Dancing with my father
Where are you
Why did you leave
If I go will you be there
God if there is one
Save me
Save me from this heartache causing influence to my morbid thoughts
My morbid thoughts of taking a life that exists to be with one that no longer exists
I'm so lost
Confused
If I cannot speak to someone I lie with
I cannot be with them
Openness is what I truly need
Someone who knows me
Someone who understands me
Someone who wants me for who I am
Inside