I smile at my everlasting loyalty
I laugh at my ridiculous behavior
I search your name on Google
I locate all your accounts
I browse through all your twitter things
I find your videos to be obnoxious
I fixate on your photos
I see you've stuck with the short hair look
I ask people if they know you
I cringe when they talk about you
I wonder if you are bad
I grin because I am hopeless
I sigh  because I am helpless
I hope I cross your mind
I guarantee I don't
I mythologize you on accident
I pretend that this is not that serious
I see people act like this  sometimes
I regret starting this poem  
I dream about you frequently
I create you to be perfection
I own the setting, the dialogue, and the personality
I wake up feeling desperate
I contemplate contacting you
I remember the last time we talked
I think it went so-so
I bothered you many times over the years
I got out of hand
I fear that there is nothing I can change
I wish sappily when I see shooting stars
I met you a decade ago
I figure you still act the same
I bet I still would tense up around you
I love you unconditionally
I want you to know who I am
I doubt you ever will