I'm alone with this monster screaming in my face. I begin to stumble because i feel like I've been hit because i think about her name. I want it all to go back, bow i want to die  but not die at the same time. food wont stop nagging me, tears are now the new me. I can't stop and i will never give in. we belong and she just won't open. I am so empty, I am so cold, I am so hungry, I am so broken, I am so depressed, I am so much more and all the above. I can't I lost my love. She won't give it a chance. I'm alone and I don't care about my life anymore.