Hope in my reach yet not in an arms distance
Day after day the load gets heavier and heavier
as it becomes more and more difficult to continue
as the will to go on starts to slowly diminish
I look for a light but all I see is a pitch black ,
void filled with pain and sorrow ,  
The demons trip me and push me over as all the weight falls onto me , I slowly give up ,I slowly stop wanting to go.
I lay there , hope hanging by a thread , boulders crushing my spine suddenly all hope is lost , all strength is gone and my struggle to get up and continue begins