I lie all the time
I lie because I cannot put into words
How I feel
How my emotions rise on the surface and spread around me
How I cannot contain the intensity of my being
How I am
THAT
But have to pretend I am
A murmur
Like everyone else
And no one can handle me
I am a
HURRICANE
I am a
THUNDERSTORM
I am a
HUMAN BEING
Who feels too much
And my fingers try to keep up
Because how else can I control
The devastation in my soul
The elation in my heart
And all the other emotions
That appear and disappear every other second
I am a chemical reaction
And all the molecules collide with me
I repulse and attract and hold and push and in the end I am

Alone

But I am an EXPLOSION
And whoever lights up the match
Will be surrounded by who I am
And I am love, hate, affection, anger, concern, desire, despair, empathy, excitement, fervor, grief, happiness, joy, passion, pride, rage, remorse, sadness, shame, sorrow, calm, quiet, peace
But one thing I am not
One thing I will never be
Is
Indifferent to you.