When I do not write poetry! When I cant write poetry!
When all I can write is strings of meaningless associated words about my meaningless associated experiences in any of my meaningless associated lifetimes. Spent committing meaningless associated actions. Avoiding meaningless associated people with their meaningless associated GroupMinds. All meaningless without the Isness of the Universe's hand in mine.
Wandering through life with few companions. Clad in yellow dust. Doing my Raja Yoga practices. Doing my Tantric Yoga practices. Doing my Bhakti Yoga practices. Doing my Gnana Yoga practices. Doing my Karma Yoga practices. Doing my Hatha Yoga practices.
Raja Yoga. waking--sleeping--sitting --lieing--standing--walking--running--eating--*******-swimming--rock climbing-trekking the high Himalayas---and always doing deep nasal Kriya Yoga breathing as I contemplate the passage of my days and nights and seek the answer to the eternal question of -- Who am I?. Who am I?. Surely not the vain and deceitful Mind? Am I really a small but equal individual,independent,nameless,formless,genderless and non physical individual Isness formed from the Isness of the Universe?. An individualIsness chasing after being in the ultimate state of Separate and Merged with the Isness of the Universe.
Tantric Yoga. Doing various sweaty and pleasure filled acts of *** with male or female or femboy or boygirl or ******* or pansexual or anyone I fancy with a **** or a ****--and a minimum of love. My stiff **** in a ****. A stiff **** in my mouth. A stiff **** in my *******. My stiff **** in an *******. *** dribbling down the inside of my legs. *** dribbling down my chin--all over my face. Licking wet swollen **** lips. Licking swollen *****. Always aiming to arouse ******--to turn on Kundalini. To reach out and touch the hem of the Isness of the Universe's robe
Bhakti Yoga. Singing and dancing and painting and glassperlenspiel and cooking and laughing and crying and playing----. Saxophones and clarinets and flutes and drums and stringed instruments and the "fool". Especially my beloved Selmer Alto Clarinet--curved like a serpent drunk on life But the greatest of my instruments is-the "fool". Foolish for life. Foolish for unconditional love. Foolish for to make people laugh. Foolish for believing that I can solve the riddle of "who am I"?. All for the delectation of the Isness of the Universe.
Gnana Yoga. Reading books and pamphlets and essays and sutras and suras and verses and scribbles on grubby pieces of paper. Searching for that elusive string of associated words that tell me that an honest woman or man passed this way before me. Not a worshipper of any "god" or "goddess" or any other Celestial being made by the Isness of the Universe to mask its innocence. No enlightend beings for me-oh no!. No buddas for me-oh no!. No beings in Gnosis for me-oh no!. No avatars for me--oh no! No sons or daughters of any "god" or "goddess" for me --oh no! Just a person,*** irrelevant but compulsory, that had realised,existentially, for a brief moment that they too are a part of the essence of the Isness of the Universe.
Karma Yoga. Every act I commit adding or subtracting from that accumulation of Karmas,good and bad or neutral, from every lifetime I have lived. Boy you gonna carry that weight!!. Roll that boulder up the hill. Only ever making Neutral Karma. Beyond the deceptions of Duality or Non-Duality. Neutral Karma that only arises by practising the Six Fundamental Yogas. But not as an obsession or a lifestyle choice. Hey Isness of the Universe-give me a helping hand here!
Hatha Yoga. Keeping my current body healthy enough so I can do all other five of the Six Fundamental Yogas. Cooking million star meals. No 5 star chefs in my houses. Eating Organically and drinking water from lifes many springs. A green leaf salad every day Taking part in the exercise of living. No contortions or posturing for me. Ha! the ingoing breath. Tha! the outgoing breath. Breathing set as conditioned reflex--living on automatic. Random deep nasal breathing--waking and sleeping. Dreaming of the Isness of the Universe. Waking up in the Isness of the Universe's arms. Feeling the Isness of the Universe's breath on my fevered brow. Listening to the Isness of the Universe murmuring in a billion billion different ways-- I love you.
Hearing the Isness of the Universe say-- I breathe through your nose and lungs. I smell through your nose. I see through your eyes and insightfulness. I look through your eyes. I lick the juice of **** or **** with your tongue. I taste Vanilla Ice-Cream with your tongue. I blow a wet **** or stiff **** with your mouth. I breathe life into the Alto-Clarinet with your mouth. I touch nakedness of others with your fingers. I feel the Void with your fingers. I wake into consciousness at your urgent voice. I spring into life at your very step. I experience all through your body. I experience existence through your life. I love unconditionally through being loved unconditionally by you. I am humble before you. My beingness is exalted by your humility Your beingness is exalted by my humility.