I hate what has came, She don't look at me the same. I lost enough now losing her. I feel the cold chilling in my skin. I am so tired but tears are pouring and thinking about my veins to open. I never cut before but now it's so tempting. I've punched mirrors and walls and broken my knuckles isn't that something? I fall into the world and look upon the stars not ready to go to work. Now that the guts told me so I may have to let the replacement smirk. I hate that its a break, i hate that shed think about it this way. now that i lost my body has to shake, I left work early to avoid losing it but what was the difference now its more then a bad day. I panic and wont stop. Chest pain because the love of my life left like that now I may just walk. I am hurt and broken, Now i may have this wrist open.