You claim that the reason you kissed me
was supposed to be "fun"--
for the both of us

And ****, it was fun

until I fell in love

and you say it's "just fun"
I say, it's just blood

seeping through the bandage.

I didn't want to wash your taste from my mouth

I didn't want to rinse your kisses off of my skin

I didn't want to relapse,

                       *but I gave in.