I sit here and write lines helplessly helping words fall into place sweating over the definition of my verse maybe if I use big words she'll love me maybe if I exercised the thought of apodyopsis she'll want to **** me what is it that makes her drool what is it that makes her bite her lip I sit here and stare at the empty page as curiosity punches me in the face my eraser falls thin the point of my pencil becomes a rounded wall blocking me from lyrically crushing her current emotion with my emotional baggage and excuses for questions of nonsense she loves it either way but I want to see her shirt drop and her pants fall to the floor I want to see her underwear tangle around her toes and bra hanging by a thread I want her to tackle me onto the bed and grasp my body as I capture what the **** to say or do I'd be a clueless and moronic human corpse, a space cadet trying to make a moment I wouldnt forget but my memory is a near epiphany then I realized I'm my own histamine falling terminally ill to my own curiosity as I sit here and ponder possible ways to make her scream and scratch claw and moan fall into an intoxicated mindset lost in the sensation, high from the ******* abstinence I became sidetracked from my intention perfectly plotting the lyrics to this poetic excuse for mental state of ****** cravings was all I had to do, instead she was the only thing I wanted to do I refused to control my emotions and spited myself for my temptations my punishment was to complete this poem in the most utterly honest way to indulge in the realism of foreshadowing to amuse the literal stints line after line and once I'm done, crumple up the paper break my pencil and dispose of my imaginative discretion and once my page turns to black ash from the light of the fire I will begin again until she stands unclothed beyond me until she forfeits to my literal ultimatum