absence is said to make the heart grow fonder
but when you've been away
you don't grow fonder of the absence
your heart doesn't grow fonder of the absence
so why
do people say that?
my heart hasn't grown fonder of the distance
honestly I thought the gap would close and my heart might heal over the wound
instead, it's just beginning to get pried open and with every letter I write, with every hour that passes that I'm still not asleep
my heart turns a shade darker and
floats a little farther away from my body