There are dreams that grow stronger as time passes instead of disappearing.          
With the long lost smiles and the far away laughs.            
The tears that were shed and the fears that were faced.        
I remember when I didn't second guess myself when I said I love you.
I remember the taste of your kiss and the glow in your smile.
The way you looked at me when I walked in a room as if you never wanted me to leave.           
The way I could see your heart drop when I told you what I did.
The sound of the door slamming as mine did the same.                      
The fear in my reflection deciding what to do.
The crunching of the frozen snow under my feet as I ran from my reality.      
The fear in her voice when she finally heard mine over the phone
'where the hell are you?!'
The uncertainty in mine as I explained my plan and why I did it.                          
The embarrassment as I collapsed on the ground from the pain of my decision.