i used to be steel but now im just simply broken glass.
the only way to show you my love
is by writing poems
dedicated to you
on your spinal cord as i run my fingertips
across your shoulder blades.
i cannot open my eyes
when i sleep next to you because
the glisten of your thoughts
reincarnate into my bones
as we lay on the white bed sheets
at three in the morning.
and when you whisper
"i love you"
i get butterflies and i cant breathe an
"i love you" in return.
i will be leaving in the morning
because i wont be able to control the guilt
that will be left on my wounded lips
made from the crisp of your secretive tongue.
i fell for you like autumn leaves;
a mistake because you were the
ever-so-suttle evergreen trees.
everything has changed and
i just want to be by your side
as we collide,
shattering into a million thoughts
and heartbeats.
before i leave,
make me feel like i've made the
best of what we have left of us,
because i cant deal with the
thought of knowing i left
my future with you
dangling by an
"i love you" that was never
meant to be said.
i'll build us a city that sleeps for two,
im high on your breath;
the same breath that encompassed me
with familiar patterns of light touching
from the hairs on your arms
the  night before.
make me feel your heartbeat as i run away with the
sound of your footsteps lagging behind me,
as you try to catch me from the wrath of hell
i have created.
i breathe through ******* dollar bills
and my blazed eyes see so much
hate and love in the world
and all i can do is watch
the world i've known destroy itself
with unknown abysses.
tight skin wraps itself around my thoughts,
forcing me to only think of you as i
crash from this high you created
inside my mind.
my empty heart somehow longs
to drown in your arms
as i walk down this boulevard
of broken promises that
have flown from your ****** lips,
my bony hips.

{m.j.}