I’ve always been afraid

that if I were to be brave

and stand up for myself

I would end up falling

and be weaker than before


So I sit there and take it

all of the hate and hostility

my silence my battle cry

my tears my secret enemy


I’ve always been afraid

to feel anything but sadness

because happiness only ends in tears


So I sit there and take it

the hate I feel my sheild

the smile I wear my mask


I’ve always been afraid

to love myself

because I might let me down

and I cant have that


So I sit there and take it

the hate for myself an arrow to the chest

the sympathy of others a dagger to the back



I’ve always been afraid