My prayer every evening is that I will become excellent at something Because my outlet can, at times, stutter and fail I like to write, and I like to think And sometimes I despise doing both Because it's impossible to quit thinking I refuse to turn to drugs to drown out my mind I will not own more crutches than I already have My biggest fear is losing control, So why would I give some other source the option? Ah, and so I end up writing It is terribly cathartic and atrociously raw I pour out my insides and then have this erratic fear That I have shared too much, too soon It's like once you post something, That mental thing becomes true and concrete I am petrified of the concrete. But.. I guess I'm also thankful to be alive Concrete evidence would show I'm still here -Something- is still here Strange, but every once in a while I need that reminder So I keep writing. I'm still here.