We sat on the swing and it was magic because for that moment my pain floated away on top of those perfect butterfly wings and into the mid-day sun and as it died I remember that it was the second most beautiful thing I had seen on that July day because as remarkable as my sadness dying in front of my crimson eyes was I remember looking at you and knowing-not thinking- that these years of walking through that devils flames would, in the end, lead me to you. A muse. All of this is true.