You kissed my arms and my face and told me everything you loved about me and we went on hikes and laughed at the sky together
I thought I had it figured out
We danced at prom and you were feeling a little down I brought you up and cradled you till you smiled
I thought I had it figured out
You guys were friends and she was like a sister to you and a best friend to me
I thought I had it figured out
When you hung out you smoked cigarettes together and skated at the park and called each other "dude"
I thought I had it figured out
It's 3 months later and I'm lying on the floor while she's lying in your bed I scream in pain and she screams in joy
I thought I had it figured out
You went from kissing every scar I had to cradling her when she was sad you used to brush my fallen hair back behind my ear and now you pull on hers when she does things right you used to cook me grilled cheese and now she's getting five star meals
I really thought I had it figured out

She walked in front of my car today and it took the entirety of myself not to floor it. I saw you in the hallway today and it took the entirety of me not to paint the walls with your blood.
I thought I had you figured out
I don't even have myself figured out