Setharoo

I woke up this morning with the strongest urge to message my brother

And I all I could think to say was, I love you so so much..

There's this fire that is inside me, almost completely burning me up

Anger, hurt, resentment, tension, anguish

And yet I can't give any of it up..

I want to yell and scream and tell him of my pain but i digress...

I repress all of this violence inside and succumb to the sadness which is all that's left

To wake with this thought is something I surely did not expect

For the last few months my life has been a wreck

Constantly shaking, with panicked breaths

I could find no comfort in where I laid my head

All. Because. Of. Him.

I was strangled in my own home by the uncertainty of his character

I was withered and had been beaten

Completely had gave up

But today my love was strong and needed an outlet

I wished only to hug him and give his hair a rub

I wished only to laugh and feel his touch

He used to be my savior, the knight in shining armor

Big brother protect me from all there is to harm me..

I needed you as a young one and there you always were

but now I find I've grown and no longer feel secure

This is just a long big rant, my feelings are unending

I just hope that someday the love I have can save you, they way it did for me

I hope to have you forever, my brother whom I need..

This cloud which has settled roughly over our roof gives me chills me day by day

These needles, and that foil a constant throw away..

My heart still steadily beating for some sort of reprieve, I find my self longing for the way our home used to be..

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