Does she kiss your hair in the morning with the sleep in your eyes?
And does she whisper how she loves into the sky of grey?
Does she look for your face in the crowds between class?
Thinking how every step further away is another she can’t take back.
Does she read your favorite books in attempt to know you more
And does she sit around and cry for you behind closed doors?

Does she feel a tug as she drives miles away,
Feeling the ache of the space filled with days?
Does she see your face in the bathroom stall?
The mirror’s cracked, but still tells all
Of a girl trying to find a way to live another day.

I carried you with me unknowingly to the places that I went
The corners of the country, you managed to find me then.
I tried to escape with a palm full of pills
But you made me stay against all will
By saying that you loved me.
By saying that you will always love me.

I kissed a boy just to fill the void but he was of no compare
Didn’t set me aflame, he didn’t surround me like the air
But we had wounds all the same, and together we played well
I couldn’t leave myself alone or else I would dwell.
It was a light to distract me, to not let me think of you
But your reflection followed me in his eyes of blue and I cried
For you to just go away.
Why can’t you just go away?

Well the days pile high as the letters collect
Filled with the words that we left unsaid.
But I will not cry for you once more,
For a lost cause, a locked door.
Not for the boy who found another way.