Dear friend I'm sorry

the *serpents inside of me
they crawl all over
throughout my body
egged and born early out of fate
out of destiny
triggered like a batting clock
basking in their there-ness
waiting-- to be used
to be struck alive
energy
               negativity
just hatch-lings of change

they shiver and squirm
find direction within
and then they get hungry
slurping at everything
till they've tasted the honey
and kissed at my pain
they
then
knew their game
and


they eat it away
all my irritant thoughts
****** dry as they burrowed inside me
all day
all my sighing when sighted
they lick up delighted

my plight unknowing, and innocent then
unaware of, yet
they were my friends
but


they grew
in length, and in strength, and in appetite.
Hissing and Searching
slithering through every part
a presence unfelt
until
they found my heart
like a thick sack of milk
what a goldmine
what a find
these two serpents big and old
have grounded me
found my touch
attached onto to my soul and mind
all the pain saved for their glory
and doomed for mine.

And I felt them
against my blood they moved like slime
those serpentine lines rolled up my spine
From my heart
through my stomach
to my right brained side
devouring me
and stealing  my time
and they **** me
they **** me
even today.
Even as I'm reaching for **Goodbye