It is tonight
That I wish to close my eyes
And wish that opening them again
Would be impossible
Because my days
Are filled with mistakes
Filled with so much pain
That I cause to the
People I love
I didnt even mean to
What the **** am I doing
What the **** am I thinking
Am I even ******* thinking
I am a joke.
Do I make you laugh?
No
That is how much of a joke I am
Lies
Lies
Lies
How can I not even be ******* aware
That they are all lies
I am stupid.
I've lost you
That is for sure
But if you would ever come back,
I'll hold you closer
tighter
Than ever
Because losing you kills me.