screams and laughs and drinks and tight clothes
social cues and groups of dudes
pausing pausing
I watch from inside the crowd

drinks and laughs and cries and sleep
social confusion and groups of some---bodies
pausing shame
I walk home from where I've been

drinks and drinks and cries and sleep and sleep
stern eyes and a dry throat
pausing pondering
already here, like I have been

drinks and light and thoughts
Wednesday isn't so bad for stumbling
pondering and pausing
not there, like I had been

I can hear the social cues from my window
I can see the tight clothes and dudes from my porch
I don't feel confusion
only pity for those watching out
from inside the crowd.