I am at fault for the things I perceive When I am surrounded by nature Watching lovely nymphs dancing through trees My head's so busy, thinking, of only me Settled down, at night, I relive my day Too many calories consumed by me Too much of a disappointment to be Anyone but myself- and awake, I lay The men I want, and the things I crave Escape my grasp, my loose fist clasps too late Today I asked a boy to date me, he lied, he hates me I attract those who can't tell I hate me, too
I always catch men staring And I feel a searing guilt Of acts only committed in mind Because I remember and I find even the thoughts repulsive I'm fine now, but thoughts evolve and Triggering can't explain well enough