Relaxation is so distant
As my mind races question to thought
Shadows in my eye jump
Left then right
I think I'm losing my cool
Sleep
Is the last thing on my mind because
This poison coursing through my veins
A drug no man can tame
But almost all that try it
Change
Change from a human to a monster
Craving one more high
(Feinding)
One more to get out alive
Steal, sell, trade, ****
Anything to escape the real
But if real is hell
Then why do I catch myself in regret
Wishing to die everytime, NO, everytime
I exchange needle to vein
Once I do I change
The real me was fine
The real me is fine
Change, this change
This ugly rotten still destroying
Every good part of me change
Will really take the real ness of heaven
Real is what I want
cause **** is hell
Cause while high I'm in hell
**** is the leader, the dark prince,
The devil disguised
But you can still smell his chemical stench
**** is the devil
And I am the lost angel
Searching to find My way home
Back to the real that you so abruptly
Had to steal
Stop the damage and allow My wounds to heal
So I can have the strength to go home
Family, friends, my heaven, My home