I'm afraid of leaving myself alone
with me,
because i'm not afraid of death,
and my body tries to **** itself
without my mind consenting.

It's an absence of brainwaves.

absolute nothing
is scarier than pain
at least pain has a reason

but this nothing consumes
it eats me alive
lingering in my thoughts,
my words,
my actions.

it's an absence of brainwaves.
it's an absence of life.