Ashamed that I let you keep ripping apart my heart, ashamed of the bruises I had to hide,
Ashamed of the way I have to move now to hide the fact that I am in so much pain.

Try to hide behind a smile the tears that are nearly drowning me.  She is so bright and cheerful with a kind word or a helping hand.

Will someone please come save me? I'm drowning in quick sand.

The abuse of my heart and my  mind was hard enough to bear, but now you are damaging me outwardly too and I'm ashamed of the treatment I continue to bear for the hope of your love.

The weight of it has crushed my hopes and dreams of us and all you said you would be.
I have laid my all on the line, loving you beyond all reason, waiting for things to change, to be tenderly loved and trusted.

I am a fool and everyone  would judge me harshly if they could see the damaged me I let myself become because of my love for you.

Always in love, trustworthy and scared that one day I'll have to leave it all behind.

My one great love a memory of what could have been but never will be, because you won't love, cherish and trust in me.