Perfunctory affections showered on me are hollow and devoid of the essence that can mend the wounds. The pouring rain of promises do not quench my endless thirst. All hopes are demolished in a phrase, all flames are smothered, the fragile sky falls, everything is undone. The dusty remnants are scattered on the inconsistent gale. Tomorrow cannot erase today, nor yesterday's slaughtering of a spirit. Culpability is not so simply repressed or forgotten, particularly while the corpse of all that was still sits rotting in your lap. Gently whispered beckoning to life cannot stir the spark for only intense electricity can reignite the broken heart.
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 6:52 PM UTC
Sitting in a silence that seems unbreakable, the montage of images of moments of my life flash before my minds eye.
Life's triumphs and tragedies dancing to the beat of a warrior's heart remind me of my strength and determination.
Once again the time has come to revisit the battleground and resume the fight against the microscopic enemies who seek to destroy me.
My greatest weapon is love, it gives me the strength to carry on, the will to struggle against the odds, to triumph once again.
Carry on.
May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 12:10 AM UTC
Carelessly chosen words flung through the air, stabbing into my heart. The jagged tips dipped in the venom of your seething rage. Penetrating echoes of the words fill my mind, echoing without fading away, the poison seeping into my veins. I stood before you as solid as stone, unwavering, seemingly unaware of the on-set of death. I turned without any further words and walked away, each step carrying me further into a state of apparent numbness, not a tear fell.
To you I am strong, you believe I'm fine, unshakable, the epitome of steadiness. You are blind.
As I escaped your view, surpassed your ear's range, the unearthly howl of agony found its voice. I fell to my knees from the searing pain as my heart broke. The tears came so fast and hard that it was just a stream of water flowing from my eyes. The air seemed unwilling to fill my lungs. I lay there dying the death of the heart while the mind and body are forced to carry on.
You are gone, forever gone, never again to return to me. The hope that you would find your way back to me, that there you would stay, erased indefinitely. The snake has spoken, the damage is done, a life is forever altered, I have become undone.
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 9:31 PM UTC
The sun drops so slowly, the lingering wisps of clouds are ablaze. I lift my eyes to the sky, setting the fiery array. Red, orange, purple, pink, and blue. The first stars are appearing, the sliver of the moon. And in that glorious moment of seemingly impenetrable peace, the silent glory is shattered as your face comes to me.
I once stood here on a lovely evening like this, with your arms wrapped around me, the breeze whispering in the trees. I felt so very certain that I had received God's greatest gift, a love so pure, heaven sent, my soul in bliss.
Now I stand here mourning , missing all that I once held so dear. All was an illusion and has been displaced by fear. In this aching soul, no matter how hard you tried, you could never strip away God's eternally abiding light. Although I may be injured by all of your darkness and hate, my soul cannot be truly broken, for my faith and light remain.
Mar 31, 2015
Mar 31, 2015 at 9:32 PM UTC
In the name of God we come undone. Violence justified, theology under the gun. Microscopic dissection of every word, while the underlying truths go unheard. Brothers and sisters are at odds, implanting hatred, unraveling the innocence. Venomous bites poison the soul, in all of this quarreling, we've lost our love, forgotten our purpose, with blindness we are overcome. See the good in your brothers, sisters share your heavenly peace, nurture your children to freely live and love in peace.
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 1:57 PM UTC
Going down in a violent flame,
Hindenburg is this loves name,
Everything finally seemed so right,
Lying together in love every night,
Dancing in the heavens in the sun,
The blossoming of true love had finally begun,
Aloft and reaching cruising hight,
Everything about you seemed so right,
Then in a flash the burning had ensued,
My boundless trust became subdued,
Volatile clouds choked the life from me,
I lost sight of the horizon and all that would be,
The final moments if destruction looming,
The rose of our love was artificially booming,
Consumed by the fire you lit with one match,
I must let go and not let my heart attach,
For now I through scorched eyes,
Everything you pledged were glaring lies,
And now in my final moments I'm falling,
Crashing and burning, death comes, heaven is calling.
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 12:03 PM UTC
Into the darkness I bellow words of love and life.
Beyond the reach of your ears I howl in pain at your rejection.
Into the abyss I have thrown myself, determine to explore its depths.
The fear is there in the background, chattering endlessly about the fruitlessness and futility of my quest.
But I will find you again, I will hold your hand, I will warm your soul with my own.
I will quench the fire that Sears you from within and replace the emptiness with the light of love.
To you trust, hope, faith, and finally, peace will be gifted.
In my embrace you will find rest and I will lovingly hold you with tenderness, wipe away you last tears, and spread a smile on your lips with kisses of heaven's love upon your brow.
In this world of chaos and destruction, we are the messengers, the givers, the servants. We carry God's love for you and deliver it daily. If only you will stop and open your eyes to us as we stand before you with our arms outstretched.
Come let me give you what is yours to have.
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 7:07 PM UTC
Ashamed that I let you keep ripping apart my heart, ashamed of the bruises I had to hide,
Ashamed of the way I have to move now to hide the fact that I am in so much pain.
Try to hide behind a smile the tears that are nearly drowning me. She is so bright and cheerful with a kind word or a helping hand.
Will someone please come save me? I'm drowning in quick sand.
The abuse of my heart and my mind was hard enough to bear, but now you are damaging me outwardly too and I'm ashamed of the treatment I continue to bear for the hope of your love.
The weight of it has crushed my hopes and dreams of us and all you said you would be.
I have laid my all on the line, loving you beyond all reason, waiting for things to change, to be tenderly loved and trusted.
I am a fool and everyone would judge me harshly if they could see the damaged me I let myself become because of my love for you.
Always in love, trustworthy and scared that one day I'll have to leave it all behind.
My one great love a memory of what could have been but never will be, because you won't love, cherish and trust in me.
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 7:06 PM UTC
A twisted game we play each day, month after month, and now year after year.
The game of your favorite elementary school bully who played till it brought you to tears.
You leap and you jump with all of your might to get the treasure back, and when you find yourself still empty handed, you cannot hold the tears back.
Frustration and anger, disappointment and pain, as your bully laughs in your face and continues his game.
This game has gone on for two long years, I have cried far too many tears as you play your twisted little game.
Although you are amused at how I leap, jump and beg for your heart which you dangle above my head, this game is heartbreaking and I'm am weary.
I won't keep playing keep away and finding myself, the only one truly in love, broken and teary.
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 7:06 PM UTC
Tenderly embrace me in your arms and let me feel sheltered from the storm for a moment, just a moment please.
Caress me with your fingertips as your love for me rushes through them and over my body, so I can feel worth your while.
Can you kiss me with a passion that melts me where I stand from the fire I have ignited in your soul.
Can you look into my eyes with sincerity as you tell me that you love me so I can trust that it's true.
Hold my hand for a lifetime, touch my soul with your own, and to you I will give my all till the end of a lifetime is here.
I will only let go to hand you to the angels and wait to come follow you home.
Please please!
Jul 27, 2014
Jul 27, 2014 at 3:01 PM UTC