they say once you lose someone you thought truly loved, your life changes completely because maybe that one person was the reason you woke up everyday with a reason to live, smile, dance silly whilst being in the rain, the reason why your heart skipped a beat, the reason why you had a reason to be inlove, to know that no matter what happened you would be alright because every time you ran in his arms or opened up your heart and your thoughts of worry they would listen to you, guide you and be there for you through that time of joy and sadness. Its hard because its as if you have nothing to hold onto, you feel indifferent, you hide behind the bathroom door, lock it behind you and cry, cry because things will never be the same again, cry because you wish you could turn the hands of time, cry because your struggling to get over him, cry because its the only way to let the pain come out and cry because you know you've changed.