Apocalyptic grin
Ain't no way to win
Choking on smoke
I'm just trying to keep alive
My body's weary
My eyes are ******
And I see you two times
In the bleak daylight
The darkness surely lies

The reaper calls out
My arms welcome him
As I shout
I walk out on a whim
Someone come find me
There ain't no way to win
Ain't no way to win

Live or die
It's not my decision
Win or lose
There's no way to tell
If I can go on like this
My life's so clouded
Just can't deal with this ****
On a winter's night
I freeze my *** off on the corner
Waiting for my fix
Contemplating quitting this
Pondering a better life
Thinking fondly of a fresh start
But here comes the scythe
With these evil ways, I just can't seem to part

And now I'm stuck
In this ****** little existence
Couldn't leave, couldn't stay
But here I am, here I lay
Here I lie with nowhere to go
Lied and lied
Said I wouldve stopped
But we both know
The truth is I couldn't bear to
We both know the truth
Is something I could never handle
So here I am
Here I go
Here I lie
And it's time to show
It's time to show everyone
It's time to show everyone how ****** up I've become

So ****** up
So ****** up
More ****** up than you
So ****** up
Too ****** up
More ****** and it's true that I could no longer take it
No longer take the long nights alone