In wich realm would such heaviness stop?

I chose painkillers to forget it all
- and it did not calm the heart ache.

I came down the stairs, left it all behind
- and did not find me lighter.

I merged with the landscape
- and stillness and cosmogonic beauty
did not lift the weight.

I reached out, shared my bread and my water,
I deleted me and brought back together I and you

- and there, amongst mankind, learning how
to become a giver, my heart found no chains.