You spew words without thought,
I swallow pellets of denial
choking down so many I no longer
see the white elephant stomp
around the room,
only the ever present doom
and endless bouts of nausea.

I ***** entitlement on the undeserving
they accept it without consideration.

like a drug mule who swallows a thousand pellets
before eventually succumbing to one,
I return again and again and again
to a dream that will not satisfy.

this insane **** would make a martyr proud.