feel so meaningless

I can look at an Afghani

and want to **** them

wish the most horrible death uopn them

and yet I can save their life

I can look at the blood, guts and even death

and never bat an eye

or even remember the injuries

until I have to load and unload them once again

I can cry tears of sorrow

and hide them upon my sleeves

so no one can see

what is exactly wrong

I can look down the sights of my carbine

with a round in the chamber

and mutter to myself

its only a job I have to do

Yet i can not express simple emotions

spoken, simple and direct

as if it would make a difference

of whether i am sane or not

I can understand a consequence

as it is the law of nature

every action has a reaction

that is equal and justifiable

I can write something meaningful

and never mean a **** word

if context and understanding

is never understood

I think i understand life

or atleast the simple meaning therein

any creature is meant to have

eat, drink, reproduce and sleep

I think I understand death

or the permenace thereof

when the look of dispair

is transfixed upon frozen eyes

Yet i can gaze upon the stars

in a distant foregin land

where death lurks in the shadows

and still feel so meaningless

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