I recalled that
it was something that I ******* needed from you
but you wouldn't like it if you did that would you
wouldn't like it if I needed that from you
bet that you'll never ******* know
this hesitation

but you'll never be as beautiful
and you'll never be as perfect
as you are now
interspersed as you are,
bone, tissue, flesh
a pink mash
dripping into the sewers
years past
and here
still I've walked
uncertain

yet
teeth
biting onto my lips
burn my memory
scavenge the ******* murk
hidden behind these walls
what I needed from you
is gone
gone forever.

When the road holds dear to those of the faulted
and invade their dreams,
--it's been a while, yes,
I admit I've forgotten--
Lauren is here
sinking deep into the gutters
whispering hollow goodbyes
never so gone