this constant state of being unwanted is unflatteringly lonely. i was supposed to be different with you, right?

im stuck in the middle. i can either be successful since i was cursed with great potential or i could just **** myself because i was also cursed with intellect. im too smart for hope. but im in the middle and i shouldnt be. i cannot function this way.

i dont like to admit this, but i am scared of death. but i am also incredibly distraught with life and people.

just so disappointed.