I tested the waters Finding them satisfactory, I walked into the shower without reluctance and stood, staring straight down at the drain, watching it all wash away. Laughter, pain, remembrances, time spent disappeared down that hole quicker than I would ever have imagined or dreamed or feared. So as the water flowed over my open skin I didn’t even feel the pain the stinging fire that burns for a few seconds, leaves, then returns just like her. I didn’t feel that stinging pain I was already numb by then just like I always am. Then I noticed the water flowing down my face, it reminded me of tears and how long it’s been since I’ve used them. I was never really good at crying my childhood robbed me of that this simulation of tears is all I get. Then, I realized just like I do everyday It’s a good thing she hates me too like she always has with so much love. But it makes me stand in the shower for another forty-five minutes as I scream silently as loud as I can without opening my mouth. How could you just give up? Was I never enough? I simply remained, wishing with all my might that this shower would be my brief respite. Please, just wash all of our memories away I continued to plead allthewhile knowing that it would be impossible for me and that I’ll alway be here helpless for whenever you need me again