Forgiven
Forgotten
At least, I'm trying to forget
Forcing myself to stay awake
Because this repulsive creature doesn't deserve sleep
Not tonight
There's a blackhole inside of me
Disgusting disintegration of everything human in my heart
Black sin
I give myself black bruises
So everyone can see what kind of person I am
The kind that hurts the one she loves
Again
Again
Again
Oh God, please forgive me
I don't know what I've done
I opened up my mouth Lord
To swallow him into the sun